Wasted Youth
Thursday, March 04, 2004
Wow, i haven't updated this thing for awhile. Things have been going good, if not smoothly. Living with my bro and sis can be really stressful at time, but whats life without stress heh. I have an appointment with Dr. handlemann tomorrow, i'm going to clear things up with him about certain relations. -This stupid dialup just d/ced me twice while trying to type this post.- Johns back with Lisa, doesn't surprise me, no comment after that. I'm getting decent spending money, while working with my dad. In one day, i helped move 5000 pounds of metals, and earned a nice sum of $168 bucks, then i helped my dad renovate this place for 100 bucks. ug, this isn't very organized! I'm -secretly- pissed off at my brother, how he is treating his girlfriend, he told her not to get too attached, seriously Wtf is that? He sleeps with her, she buys him a gameboy advanced, a fucking xbox and a bunch of games, and now he's avoiding her?! My bro has some serious issues, Robin is such a nice girl, if i was 19 i would want to go out with her, but ya know that whole underage thing doesn't go well with me. My mom tried to get my to move back to brampton, by threatening to take this computer away, to 'bribe' me back to brampton in other words.
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
I'm typing this from my dad's computer, on dial-up. They did cut off my internet while i was in the hospital. My mom stayed at work till 6pm before she came to the hospital to visit me, i got to the hospital at 9am that day. Besides that, i'm going to be staying with my brother and sister for the holidays, they won't let me go out and visit my other brother Jeff, or my other friends in Brampton. Its a ripoff, my mom and stepdad even control my life from 300 miles away.
Monday, December 15, 2003
my mom just called back. I have an appointment with Handlemann on the 12th of january. Fuck, think i can last that long? we'll have to see >.>
GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. I THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE TILL THE END OF JANUARY FOR THE INTERNET, BUT NO FUCKING WAY. THEY'RE CUTTING IT OFF THIS FRIDAY, THIS FRIDAY. I'M REALLY FUCKING PISSED, THIS IS GOING TO MAKE MY LIFE A FUCKING MESS. I LIVE OFF THE INTERNET, I THRIVE OFF OF IT. WITHOUT IT, MY COMPUTER IS JUST A CRAPPY COMPUTER... I FEEL LIKE THEY DONT' WANT ME HERE ANYMORE, LIKE I'M COSTING THEM TOO MUCH MONEY, IMPACTING ON THERE SPENDINGS. THIS IS CRUEL TORTURE! NOW I GOTTA SPEND 2 WEEKS WITH MY BRO AND SISTER, ITS BORING THERE. GAWD. I'M SO ANGRY AT THEM I'M NEARLY IN TEARS. better make the best of this...
Sunday, December 14, 2003
Yea, as you have seen in the previous post, i was going to get my highspeed back for christmas. But no, i'm getting it cut off instead. Since i came home, i've been more and more pissed at my rents(mom and stepdad). They didn't ask if i had dinner or wanted it, they just cooked up two steaks for themselfs, we never get any steak, at least when i'm not around. So i'm just here waiting for the water to boil for my Kraft Dinner. Just like old times, my dad told me about a story(like 10 years ago) that my moms boyfriend and here were eating lobster and high end food, while they were feeding my siblings and I potatos and fucking kraft dinner. Guess what my dad did when he heard about this. He found her boyfriend in his car, opened up the door, threw him down to the ground and said something along the lines of. "Feed my kids the same as you eat, or you won't be very happy the next time we meet." So yea, i'm pretty pissed off right now. After they had the conversation about the internet being cut off my mom said. If you break anything in the house out of revenge, your out on your ass, i didn't know what the hell she was talking about, then she brought up two incidents. The first was when someone, she said it was me, took a clever to the chopping block, I had that 'is this a trick question' kinda look on my face. The other is from something that i did, but not out of revenge or anger. I was playing around with a knife and hit the fridge door, making a medium sized chip to pop out of it. They are so ignorant that it is funny. Slimey cheap ass bastards.
Friday, December 12, 2003
Right on. I just got off the phone with my mom, and its looking damn good. High speed internet will once again reign supreme in this household!!!
Monday, December 08, 2003
In about 17 days, i'll be so hyped up on caffine i can play FFXI for 4 days straight. I had dinner with my dad this weekend, as usual dinner with him involves everyone in my family besides mom & bird, which is goooood. My bro shawn kicks ass, he can make anyone laugh, probably cause he's gay, and gay people are fun! 'cept pat. Ug, i'm starting to download stuff once again, this slow speed crap is getting to me. On average it takes me 15 hours to download a dvd rip, this sucks... Anyways, unlike other messages this won't turn into a rant against my parents. damn, i gotta learn more 'bout sentance structure. I think my computer was about to blow up earlier, CS froze a bunch of times >.> I should look more into the voltages needed to support higher clock rates.
Friday, December 05, 2003
Children Vs. Parents 101
After fixing this computer, and researching overclocking procedures. My mom and step-dad come home, everything goes well. Until my mom walks up to me at the computer and starts asking questions. -Are you working on your homework? Is it all done? Playing on the computer wont get you a job or pay rent.- If they listened to me during the week, they would have learned that i worked hard on school work all week. It usually takes a few hours for 1 lesson... Anyways, they usually bitch about me asking cheap shot questions. Oh thats right, i remember, It happened early last night. After dinner, my mom and step-dad were having a conversation about staying home for the weekend, then all of a sudden my mom comes up with an idea to have a family dinner here this weekend. This dinner was supposed to happen on my sisters birthday Nov 30, my mom didn't plan anything for that date. Then after a few phonecalls to my siblings, they're were all busy this saturday and next, she went on about how its either this weekend or next. The plans were cancelled. She then asks, 'Why does everyone have time to go to dinner with your father?', i said 'You know he plans his dinners 3 weeks ahead of time, not 1 day or 1 week ahead of time.' I hate when she thinks the world should revolve around her, that biotch.
Monday, November 24, 2003
Nothing beats reading all of megatokyos 488 episodes and watching the entire Evangelion in a weekend. My friend told me about a new Anime seires by Square Enix, no its not that final fantasy seires. It's called Full Metal Alchemist, you should check it out.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Weeeee. I'm so happy, i'm officially getting FFXI now, and busing starts next WEEK. Now I get this homework finished once and for all, and move up in the work i'm so far behind. hmmm, one thing i'm not so sure about is this pain growing in the back of my throat, the same pain as i had when i was infected with tonsillitis a few weeks ago...
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
Wow, there must be people cheering me on behind the stage and all, cause apparently someone searched the web for "jamie fowler" porn(thanks to brandons site pickin' it up). To be honest, its scary, its like Alexa is right behind me trying to rape my ass @_@
Sunday, November 02, 2003
What a weekend, i moved both my brother Matt and my sister Jen. Matt only took a couple hours to move, Jen took the remainder of the weekend. I'm never moving her again, it was horrible! Anyways, the most irritating thing that happened in the last week or so are the 2 swollen tonsils sitting in the back on my throat. Its disturbing how those little two organs can generate so much pain while swallowing, i've tried everything to get rid of the pain(everything as in pain killers to some brown pill my grandma gave me). its so quit around here now, no fat bastards walking around talking about how great diablo 2 is... ::drills holes in throat to replace tonsils T_T::
Friday, October 31, 2003
URG! bastards wont' let me change that old crappy name to a better more subtle name like JameS! (without the capital S)
I haven't used this thing for ages. As i left off before, a dramatic home life with the usual daily perks that leave me closer to insanity every passing moment. Enough of that, i won't talk about the past 2 months that i haven't updated. This weekend my brothers are moving out again. I have to help them(as usual), i will probably end up packing most of their things and then have to clean up their messy rooms afterwards. But before I help move them, i have to provide my very own sister of my very own 'lifting up back braking fridge' skills, anyways now its time for me to complain about school, YAY don't get too excited. Mr Spencer left a message on the phone today(didn't want to use 'on the phone' cause of you smartasses') i called back, he said that i the geography class had a test yesterday and i'm behind blah blah blah, just the usual. I think paul is going to disown me. This is all i can think of saying for now, lets hope that blogger doesn't screw up this time.
Monday, September 01, 2003
Damn parents, you live with them or effectivly hide there bodies. They keep on bugging me, the day before i goto a normal high school. Arg, it seems that they think its alright for me to do all my chores AND my brothers chores today. My mom asks me why i look and sound so angry, they're fucking idiots. I would laugh if they still believe that i have 'aspergers syndrom', they can kill a man with there sheer IGNORANCE.
Thursday, August 28, 2003
Wow, i havent posted anything for quite awhile now. I received my report card, i just failed english with a mark i don't want anyone to know. Today i went to Heart Lake to get my home room number, timetable, picture taken and all that other stuff. School starts next tuesday, i think i'm ready for it. My padlock combo is memorized, got some new clothes, i got rid of that old black sweater thing(that thing was horrible). I've replaced it with a new navy blue columbia sweater, with no 'bling bling' crap on it. damn i look good with this stuff.... errr i don't look like all those other wannabes, i look sorta my own way...
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
I just had this dream, that i got my report card and i failed 6 courses with horrible marks.... then all this weird stuff happened, but i don't want to get into that stuff.
Monday, July 14, 2003
I just got back from josh's place. Camping was a new and fun experience, i met some really fun adults, and teens my age. Anyways, have you ever heard of those hungry man meals? They suck, they don't even approach my idea of a 'hungry mans meal', they don't fill me up but the meals are quite tasty. Besides those things, i've finished up another book, got a couple spike necklaces from barbie(shes the greatest).
Friday, July 11, 2003
I'm going camping with josh later on today. Maybe that will kickstart my willingness to go outside. My sleeping patterns are going to hell. I slept a couple hours yesterday, from about 5am to about 10am, stayed up late, went to sleep again.... woke up a couple hours later, it goes on and on. Its really sapping my strength, bleh... this is no place to bitch
Monday, July 07, 2003
(man, blogger is really messing up right now, heres the email thingy)
This is the email that my brother replied to-
and i think we would all be in AA by now. Enjoy!
FUCK THE BOYS!!!!
We like them, but do they like us?
The ones we do never fuss
They never stop in and we wonder why
We stress, we bitch, we sometimes cry.
"Guys are assholes!" we always say.
Yet their stupid games we always play.
One day this, one day that.
So we turn to food which makes us fat.
Then they complain we're putting on weight
Defining to us why we never date.
They're the reason, those stupid fucks,
Making us believe life sucks.
SCREW THEM ALL, LET'S GRAB A BEER!
We've got our friends, they're all here.
Cheers to the girls, fuck the guys.
We're sick of their shit and stupid ass
lies.
We don't need them, no not us.
Good for a scam, but never to trust.
So here's what to do:
Together we stand.
We'll party it up with beers in each hand.
Alone in our beds of course it might end,
But we don't get dumped and we still have
our
FRIENDS!
Send this poem to all your girl friends because in the end, those are the only people you can truly count on.***
this is the reply =
ok now ladies heres what I have to say to you.....
nasty words, you have to say,
about the guys, around today.
Judge us not, as a whole,
we don't all have, the same goal.
I'ts not my fault, you like the dudes,
who're cool,sexy,jocks and rude.
You get what you pay for, in these days,
what do you expect, from a pretty face?
Open your heart, close your eyes,
for what counts, hides inside.
Take my tip, use it wise,
you'll be in, for a surprise.
Try the one who makes you smile,
the one who goes the extra mile.
The friend, the pal, the one you never,
thought would ever, be together,
with you, in past, present and future,
maybe hes the proper suitor.
So you're snakin, munchin food?
blamin it all, on that dude?
Well, guess what? HES NOT THERE!
stuffing your face with food, or beer.
Blame us not, for your resolution.
Simply try a substitution.
enjoy your food, and your beer,
you only have so many years.
So you think that getting fatter,
is going to really really matter?
You missed the point, think again,
you think the one will just see skin?
No he won't hell see through,
into your heart, to love you.
You need to see in and out,
thats what loves all about.
Enjoy life for all its worth,
your days are numbered, on this earth.
Theres no time to bitch and complain,
about the pricks, who dont know your name.
So yeah have fun, chill with the girls,
but dont lose hope, in the guys of this world.
Heres a toast to this poor chick, and a finger to all the dumbass pricks,
who make girls like her, sob and cry,
whats the matter with you guys?
You think youre cool, playin the "bitches",
well guess what you little shit heads.
I'm in love, with my girl,
shes all that matters in this world.
What have you, got to hold?
In the night when youre cold?
Nothing, notta, zilch, zip.
heres another little tip.
Stop trying to be pros,
stop treating them like hoes,
give them respect, hold their hand,
try for once to be a man.
I hope you guys learned something today..... buh bye
Saturday, June 28, 2003
You're the TRADITIONAL PIRATE. Stealing gold,
backstabbing other pirates, being suspicious of
everyone you meet, running from the law...
you're the real thing. People don't like to
mess with you because you always manage to get
your way. Just watch out, those parrots can be
a little messy sometimes....
What Kind of Pirate are You?
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Thursday, June 26, 2003
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
My mom exploded once again at me. This time she was filling out an application sheet for me. She says i'm being really rude and all, that i should pay more respect to people. The people that know me, know that i'm not rude(most of the time, everyone has their moments), and that i do respect people. She's such a bitch, she's forcing me to get a full-time job for the summer, and they're taking away my free weekends for the rest of the FUCKING YEAR. She really should respect me a hell of alot more, or i'm moving out. That bitch.
Monday, June 16, 2003
When i got home, my mom had a surprise for me. She thought it would be a great idea. They are taking away pretty much all my things, and forcing me to get a job. I'm so frustrated right now, i don't know what to do. I'm nearly crying. This never happened to my other siblings, she just likes to pick on me. My brother Matt and Jeff had jobs with my father at my age. They didn't have to go through interviews, they didn't have to work with strangers. She also continues to blame me for things i didn't do.
Sunday, June 15, 2003
Life is good. Except for the few little things that i shouldn't worry too much about. I haven't felt this happy for quite some time, its strange considering the circumstances at hand. My brother Matt is a bitch, he's rude, ignorant and really stupid for his age. He likes to push me around, like last night. He wanted to 'play' with me, so he hugs my face crushing my nose, I thought it was broken. It hurt so much and it kept on bleeding. He didn't help me clean up the mess, he didn't even say sorry until a half hour later. And before that he went through my room, looking at private stuff, then disturbs my conversation with Valerie on the phone. He needs to either get laid, or get the shit kicked out of him. I'm tempted to call my dad and say something like "I don't want to see you until you straighten out Matt." Damn people like him make the world a dangerous place. He calls me an asshole, cause i don't do things i'm told to do, but the truth is, i do what he tells me too, its just that he's not specific.
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
So they finally forced me to apply for a job. Then they insult me, by talking very badly about my habits. Then they tell me what to do. Then they talk to the dog.... oh btw did i tell you they are cutting off my internet?
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
Monday, June 09, 2003
Saturday, June 07, 2003
Being sick for one week really sucks. Missing work, getting behind, and also makes your vunerable to insults from people that think you skipped the week. Heh, i don't skip school days, maybe classes not even full classes.
Saturday, May 31, 2003
How do we know? Well, deep down, your gender affects everything about you, from your favorite number to your views on Canada. Many men who took the test think and act just like you, as you can see from the clusters above.
Statistically speaking, you are a dude.
As we said, this test gets smarter with every taker, and it's almost never wrong. You can make it even better by telling us it was right for you.
YOU ARE FILLED UP IN THE STICKS. YOU HAVE A LIFE
SUPPLY OF BEEF AND CORN AND OTHER OBLIGATORY
FARM SYMBOLS. YOU HAVE ENOUGH TO FEED YOU AND
YOUR SISTER AND YOU AND YOUR SISTERS CHILDREN
FOREVER. :)
ARE YOU STARVING IN AFRICA?
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Thursday, May 29, 2003
Sunday, May 25, 2003
Monday, May 19, 2003
Whoa, what a weekend. On friday i went to my dad's place and partied, woke up saturday mourning around 12 played vice city for awhile, after this point everything is boring Until. My brother kidnaps me and brings me to the theatres to watch the matrix reloaded. Kickass movie, i won't go into it because i know of some people that hate this movie. Today i had another little party type thingy, now all i have to do is find the booze, and i can get drunk(must know what its like), wish me luck, Ciao.
Thursday, May 15, 2003
Monday, May 12, 2003
Heh, i'm going to go camping this weekend, good thing to take off stress from all this crap thats due..... ERAG
Fucking great, i just got a letter from indec. It had my results from the literacy exam, i barely failed. Great little touch to my day, now its going to be harder for me to get through highschool.....
I'm nothing more then a un-original Copycat. I have done nothing original, all of it has been done before, and will be done again.....
Have i ever really felt love for anyone else? was it just some jealous feeling that someone can have someone that i can't? Maybe i was never destined to love another, or someone destined to love me,so much involved, so much at stake. I can't make people laugh. I'm not good at conversations. When i try to act like the unique individual i am, i just get told to shut up, or get my opinion smashed to peices. Music is one of my few alternatives to realitly, Music never makes fun of me, or who i am.
Saturday, May 10, 2003
fucking mom and mr. bird. Disturb me while i'm putting my concentration elsewhere, and complain about how i don't respond. I don't disturb when they watch TV, or movies. Unless its important, and even then i'll be patient, and wait a couple minutes for them to respond. But they give me about 5 secs to respond or get scolded, shows how they are, man i hate it here. It may have everything i want, it has everything i don't want.
Wednesday, May 07, 2003
I missed the bus this mourning, those bastards changed my time to 8:14, which really drives me up the wall. My brother is supposed to drive me to school, but he's still sleeping after i told him to get up well after a half hour ago. School's almost out. I just need to get my grades up, and i'm free all summer ^.^ YEAH, i needa get a job, life is too normal and boring now... eweh. :: goes downstairs to wake up jeff::
Saturday, May 03, 2003
I just got back from the movies. I went to see X2. It was pretty damn good, all i have to say is, that if you like the first one you'll love the second one.
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
You are a freeform writer. Individualistic with a
sense for the different and challenging, Walt
Whitman and his poetry lacking meter and rhyme
is just what the doctor ordered. You're quick
to write something that the rest of the world
doesn't accept as poetry, quick to separate
yourself from the average joe. An author with a
true sense of self, you have confidence in your
abilities and aren't afraid to show it. :) GO
YOU!
What's YOUR Writing Style?
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last one...
You're nothing, really. But you're nice.
What type of music are you?
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... damnit
YOU SAW YOUR PARENTS HAVING SEX!!!
what's YOUR deepest secret?
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This one is a little far fetched.
